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No- I'm NOT chiming in. I'm saying thank you to all the TRF'rs who posted. I only know a few of you personally and what you others may think of me-well frankly, Scarlet- I don't give damn. BUT- I do have a deep, central, core belief that has been demonstrated to me over and again: You never know who's life you have impacted and may never know. You will be lucky if once in your life you get proof. I'm not talking about a spouse or your children-just your random associations. I's ironic that I made a decision earlier today that I NEED to quit smoking and it's really hard. I haven't told my wife, nor anyone until now-except this group of random strangers, of my decision. The urge is overwhelming and I feel sorry for the heroine and crack addicts as now I can relate. I can't even think right now and I think I'm starting to get the shakes. I kinda want to cry, but I'm not really sad-maybe scared? I dunno. I also believe there is a reason people come into your life (see above) that you either teach or learn from. No mysticism here- no religion, just synergism or possibly serendipity. I would normally blow over a thread topic like this-I don't want to hear the preaching and self righteous 'your body is a temple' kinda stuff. But what I read (all the way thru-paying attention) has good merit, pros and cons, and different viewpoints. This alone has helped me form a shaky resolve to help myself. Right now, I am in a big self hate mode and have no confidence I can do this. Yeah- I'll see a Doc, but I really am not going to deal with some upright MF telling me-"see, told you so" I'm not afraid of death-but stroking out or slowly drowning in my own body fluids puts way too much onus on my wife and kids. Thank you guys- sincerely and from the bottom of my heart. I don't even know why I'm posting this-it's gone on too long so-carry on and ignore the random little whiner in the corner. I have a friend (Mark) that swears he quit smoking by building a model railroad (yeah- don't laff-it's more expensive than rockets) so he posted his build-swears it saved his life (check out Spookshow.com) and since this is a trigger, I'll have to learn how to post a build thread as I attempt the same therapy. Help is appreciated, but I think you guys have done enough for me today. Sincerely, thank all of you for even reading this.